Monday, 3 August 2015

A Short Tale about a Tall One....


That day there were two of us at the Clinic: a young colleague and myself, a rare occurrence but definitely welcome. Two means that not only is the OPD over quicker, but that we can take a breather now and then and indulge in a little light-hearted chatter; unlike those ‘single’ days when patients come and go in such a breathless, endless rush that there is no time to look beyond the next patient and his physical woes. Of course, even on that day, the long line of patients had not really diminished even with our double presence and so they continued to stream in: men, women and children seeking succour for myriad real and perceived ill health issues. As patients, men I have noticed, tend to be rather brief and to the point, the description of their ill health limited to two or three precise sentences; and even on prodding do not elaborate much. Women on the other hand, need only a little encouragement to launch into a long litany of complaints, the milder the complaint, the more detailed the description! As majority of the clientele in that little clinic are women, our time was spent more in giving a patient hearing to our patients; rather than in any major medical diagnostic efforts.
As she entered the consultation room, it was me who spotted her first, as the entrance was in the direct line of my vision. The first thing that struck me was her height for she was really, really tall by Indian standards, towering at probably 5’ 10” or so. Lithely built with the sinuous grace of an athlete, she looked a little incongruous with the dupatta draped demurely around her head and the two children in tow, one a baby in her arms and the other a toddler fiercely clutching her free hand. She looked to be either from rural Haryana or Rajasthan, her accented Hindi coloured by the native roughness of the Jat tongue. As she was settling down on the patient stool opposite the Younger One, I couldn’t help but remark aloud about how tall the she was. For a few brief seconds, both Younger One and me marvelled at her height and her physique and then as my attention was claimed by the patient sitting before me, I momentarily forgot all about her. But my attention was reclaimed by the woman when my current patient departed and I was free for a brief moment. The woman was talking animatedly to the Younger One about how the baby, though eight months old, was still exclusively breast feeding. Exclusive breastfeeding beyond six months is a paediatric blasphemy and when admonished, she good naturedly replied that she was not aware of this and now that Doctor Madam had told her about it, she would definitely start weaning the baby. I had no other patient at the moment and so as she and her Doctor Madam continued their consultation, I spent my time observing the lady.
You may have noticed this in your life too: there are certain people who, even at first meeting you instinctively like, without any apparent reason. This woman was proving to be one such person. She was young, probably in her twenties, with a fresh, happy face. ‘Get rid of that asphyxiating dupatta from around her head,’ I thought, ‘and put her in a pair of denims and a T shirt and she would be no different from any college-going youngster......’  As I watched her interact with the Younger One, marvelling once more at her height and physique, I suddenly had this vision of her in a military uniform, belted, booted and capped, striding boldly forward on parade..... So I asked her if she had been an athlete ‘shaadi ke pehle’. She smiled a tiny smile and echoed my words ‘Shaadi ke pehle.....’ Then, perhaps emboldened by our interest she explained, ‘Gaon mein to ladkiyon ko zyada padne nahin dete... nahin to Madam, main bhi pad likhkar aapke jaise ban jaati...Meri to 17 saal mein shaadi ho gayi....’ Remembering my vision of her in a military uniform, I asked her whether she had seen those women BSF soldiers who march at the Wagah-Attari border in Amritsar. She would be perfect for that job, I told her, with her height and her physique.... Encouraged by both our attention and interest, she opened up a little, “ Main to abhie bhi jaa sakti hoon, Madam, mera umr to bas 24 saal hai” Hearing this, my first reaction was – what about the children, who would look after them then?  She laughed in reply, ‘Dada Dadi dekh lenge dono poton ko....” We laughed back and she left. But before leaving, she turned back once to ask us, ‘Aap log mujhe dekhkar itna hans kyun raheen hai?’ She was correct to an extent, I had been smiling but of course not at her. So I clarified, “Aap hamein bohut achhi lageen, isiliye!” Reassured, she smiled and left.
You may be wondering why she has become a subject of this blog. Like I said before, there are some people, who for some unknown reason tug at your heart strings... Most of the time you are at a loss to explain why. But sometimes, like in this case, if you think deeply enough, you are able to pin-point the reason. After she had left, I thought long of this girl, about why she appealed to me and I realised that the answer was quite simple really...You see, throughout our interactions with her the one thing that shone through was her perpetual good spirits....Never once did she rue her fate, or curse it. Hope rang true in her voice as she talked about the opportunities still available before her... She was happy with what life had given her till now and she was confident that what she wanted in terms of personal fulfilment as a career woman, she could achieve in the future. She was at peace with her present life and full of hope for her future....She had in short, achieved what many of us in ostensibly better life situations are still struggling to achieve: that perfect harmony between satisfaction with our present life and our innermost aspirations. And perhaps it was this peace that was sensed by my subconscious, attracting me to her.

And so I can see her now, clearly in my mind’s eye, impeccably uniformed, marching with strong, measured steps at the gates of Wagah while her sons cheer proudly from the visitors’ stands....... 

Sunday, 19 July 2015

Butter Chicken!

Though it stands there, right in the centre of the busy shopping complex, one is liable to miss it. And that is because its very nondescript shopfront consists of only a few ordinary karahis, tawas , angithis and a tandoor so blackened by soot and grime that the shop is like a blind spot in your vision field, ensuring that you invariably miss it. But the true Gourmet Gurus of this city, like Rowling’s Wizards gone shopping at Diagon Alley, never miss the place. In the beginning we too, a la uninitiated Muggles, had never given the place even  a cursory once-over but since initiated into the inner circle of city gourmands, have now made this joint our regular weekend dinner destination.
The place is called ‘Papa di Hatti’ which (correct me if I am wrong) means ‘Papa’s Shop’. There is a slight doubt as to who ‘Papa’ really is, though in all probability it must be the middle-aged man who mans the master tawa, expertly wielding the massive karchi; to spin, whip, slide , turn  and blend the ‘freshly emerged from tandoor’ still bland chicken tikkas with the magic masala mix to conjure up a heavenly dish which sadly has been given the very mortal name of  “Tawa Chicken”! He also doubles up as the Maître de Hotel, solicitously inviting you (in case he finds you waiting in line) with a  ‘Sir, backside mein baith jayiye (Sir, come sit at the rear), jagah hai (There is space)”. Now the ‘backside’ of Papa’s shop is really not somewhere you would like to spend your Saturday dinner date, but since Other Half has no such qualms when Papa’s Tawa Chicken is beckoning, I have to follow perforce , squeezing gingerly into the narrow passageway between the red hot angithi and the brown oily wall, to the little porch on the ‘backside’. Here there are two or three ex-white plastic tables decorated with a few unstable ex-white plastic chairs and no fan or cooler or air conditioning. A drain packed to the brim with stuff drains usually are full of flows right next to the tables and in the distance stray dogs battle over bits of chicken discarded by the dish washing employees of Papa. The smell is very ‘drainy’, and in summer this smell combined with the stultifying heat and humidity renders you frozen in shock. But that is only the first time you visit. Once the food has been tasted, every other thing recedes into the very back of your consciousness, at least for the period you are gorging on Papa’s food.
The waiter who also trebles as the dishwasher and the occasional karchi wielder, rushes past you with a garbled, 'Kya khana hai’ as he carries a steaming ‘Tawa Chicken” to the next table. Its fragrance is wafting all around us and Other Half rendered hoarse with anticipation, is taking great deep gulps of drool. He manages to ask me, ‘Kya khana hai…’ in between his gulps but we both know that the question is rhetorical. The waiter breezes by our side and Other Half yells, ‘Ek butter chicken and do tandoori roti……’ The man picks up the echo of his words and dances out, singing ‘Ek butter chicken aur do tandoori rottttteeee…….’
As we wait for the order to materialize, the heat rises in direct proportion to our anticipation. We marvel at the resilience of the cooks standing so close to the red hot grill and the white hot tandoor preparing our chicken and our roti.....We watch them in wonder as they work, nonchalant to the heat, sweat dripping down their faces and their backs, leaving dark stains on their banians and tingles of heat down our spine that make us shiver in sympathy………..
The waiter waltzes in once more, crooning, ‘Butter Chicken aur Tandoori Roti’ as he sets the bowls down ceremoniously over the rickety table. The fragrance is overpowering and the frequency of gulps taken by Other Half has trebled. But graciously, he ladles out generous portions of the chicken and gravy onto my plate first before his own and suddenly I get a little maudlin…..After nearly nineteen years of togetherness, love manifests in such commonplace ways… …..!
The butter chicken is a mass of molten gold topped by a generous dollop of snow-white malai….The aroma is heady a mix of pure desi ghee and all that is best of our oriental spices and we can’t wait to dig in. But before I have even dunked my first piece of roti into the gravy, Other Half already has his mouth full of gravy and chicken and is chomping busily, a look of artless happiness on his face. I smile and take my first bite. The gravy is a work of art, a masterpiece that can put the best of Michelin starred restaurant fares to shame. It is silky and spreads like good chocolate over my tongue, firing my taste buds out of their slumber. I take a bite of the chicken and it is cooked perfectly, a zillion times superior to the KFC junk that we tend to rave about. The spices and flavours have inundated the very heart of the chicken and each bite is packed with flavor. It is soft, succulent and in one simple word, delicious. The spices, the butter, the cream and God knows what other wonderful ingredients all combine beautifully into a rich tapestry of flavours and as I eat, I compose the next post for my blog in my mind, fishing for one superior adjective after another from the inspiration inundating my taste buds.
Soon we are both done and leave the table. I glance back for one last look at the table and find to my amusement the battered steel katora and plates shining clean with not a drop of gravy remaining. I laugh to myself when I realise that One Half has actually chomped to pulp even the stray chicken bone and so there are none on his plate!

As Other Half shells out the cash (which I must say is very, very reasonable), ‘Papa’ asks us, “Theek tha?” But he knows as we do, that this question is redundant, because the answer is writ large on both our faces. We simply nod our heads pleasantly in answer and turn back, my hand snugly in Other Half’s, a sense of utter Nirvana adorning both our faces as we walk back to the car!

Monday, 29 June 2015

Another Translation.....

This one's another translation of a Tagore verse, a song very popular with my family during childhood. The version I'm familiar with was sung by the Late Debabrata Biswas. George Da, as he was affectionately known to all, was somewhat of a rebel Rabindra Sangeet exponent, a singer perpetually at war with the stuffy Rabindra Sangeet purists of his time. He had a deep bass voice and has sung this piece with a raw, naked emotion that brings out beautifully its intense pathos, longing and loneliness.

The song's called...., well never mind what it's called. It's classified as a nature-centric poem of the Monsoons; but then, who cares about boring classifications....I, like Debabrata Biswas, choose to make my own interpretations...

This piece speaks to me of interminable waitings, waitings that are rewarded occasionally by a meeting; but these meetings are so brief, so fleeting that all they do is to leave a taste of incompleteness and a deep desire for something more...

But you read on, interpret the piece at your will and enjoy the beauty of the Poet's thoughts and words...

🌾🌾🌾🌾🌾🌾🌾
You had come:with footsteps that threw fleeting shadows on the yonder path....
You had come:
but this coming-so ephemeral,
whispered to me-
That you....had never come at all!

(This indifference: was it only a facade?)
Your hasty footsteps though,
left imprints of hurt
Upon the grass!
You had come-
This coming,as if you had never come at all-
left the leaves dripping tears.....
And the grasslands sodden with pain....

Then, you went away,
Borne on the rain-soaked breeze.
Left behind now,
only the sun and shadows play,
Hide and seek
In the forest glade...

এসেছিলে তবু আস নাই, জানায় গেলে...... in case you're still wondering which song this is...)

Here's the YouTube https://youtu.be/EEBH3_lgnok

Tuesday, 9 June 2015

Birds from My Balcony

The Elusive Koel

          I’ve always lived in ground floor houses and may be that is why I have always nurtured this fascination for houses on upper storeys. While we had lived in the same ground floor house for the first twenty years of my life, given the Other Half’s passion for gardening, I’ve again, in my later life  lived in ground floor houses, most of them with large gardens. So this time when I shifted into a first floor house for a change, I was happy. And the icing on my cake of happiness was the balcony. It’s a medium sized affair and being accessible from both the bedrooms, offers a great view of the outside from within the rooms themselves.  A large part of the balcony’s charms are the four trees growing just beyond it. Two are neem trees, the third a wild tamarind and the fourth a straggler yet unidentified. Spring in this city had been especially generous this year and probably because of this, the trees are lush with leaves, forming a cool green canopy around my balcony. It’s a real pleasure to sit there in the mornings, in the cool of the early dawn, sip my favourite Darjeeling tea [steeped, not brewed ;-)] and watch the birds beginning their day. This post is actually about these birds and not about the balcony.  The balcony bit was just a prologue.

The birds

          I never knew this dry as dust city was home to so many birds. A jungle of unattractive concrete buildings, potholed roads, rotting garbage dumps, maniacal traffic, a dying river and singular lack of greenery, this city bore me no appeal whatsoever; till one day standing on my balcony I saw the birds! Attracted by the greenery of my neighbourhood, which probably is the last surviving green in this city, they have made this place their sanctuary. And my four trees are avian prime estates, offering premium green shade, good quality sturdy branches and excellent nesting options in the form of large tree holes (these have PLCs attached to them, by the way!). The neem trees are for some reason the most preferred and at present families of various species of birds have made it their home and nursery. Standing on the balcony, almost at eye level with these nests, I am a silent but highly interested spectator of their daily routine.

Brown-headed Barbet.         This gentleman was hitherto unfamiliar to me and so at first glance, I mistook him for a kingfisher. But on closer scrutiny I realised he is quite distinct from a kingfisher. Firstly, his beak, in comparison to that of the kingfisher’s, is huge, like Gerard Depardieu’s nose in ‘Cyrano de Bergerac’. Then, his eyes, which , unlike the kingfisher’s, are great dark orbs ringed with brown that occupy a large portion of his head and for some reason remind me of a goggling Salman Khan in Maine Pyar Kiya. However handsome you may say Salman Khan is, folks, I think he goggles too much. The barbet’s call too is very distinctive, a guttural but musical twrooot trwooot twroooot which he belts out with unfailing regularity in the peak heat of the afternoons, jolting me from my post lunch snooze. Finally, it’s the barbet’s colour which is a lovely fluorescent green unlike the electric blue of the kingfishers. ( Are there green kingfishers? I have yet to see a one, though I have seen plenty of blue ones). In sharp contrast, his head is a rather mousy brown (that is why the name ‘brown headed barbet’) and here I feel a bright yellow or a bright red would have been much more suited. But I guess nature had exhausted her store of colours by the time she created the barbet’s head and so he has to, perforce, be satisfied with the brown. And I know exactly who hijacked his share of red and yellow ...it’s those cackling parrots that inhabit the tamarind tree and spend their time swooping around showing off their yellow and red heads ......!Anyway, our brown headed barbet is at present unconcerned about superficialities like feather colours as he is in a steady relationship. His partner is just like him, only slimmer and together they have occupied a hole in one of the neem trees and are nesting there. They spend the entire day flitting around in flashes of green, carrying insects in their beaks to feed the barbet brood. I haven’t yet had a glimpse of the young ones as the tree hole is on my leeward side, but judging from the intensely busy parents, I guess there must be a sizeable number of them.

The Mynahs.   A pair of Common Indian Mynahs (‘shaliks’ in Bong) have rented the tree hole just above the barbets and the two neighbours spend the entire daytime squabbling, name calling and intimidation, in keeping with the best traditions of ‘mere pyare padosi’. I did a bit of reading on these birds and found to my amusement, that of the number of Sanskrit names given to them, one is ‘Kalahapriya’ or 'the one who loves a ruckus'. So very apt. But however ‘kalahapriya’ they may be , you cannot deny that they have such beautiful eyes.....jet black rimmed with a kajal of bright ochre yellow and tapering elegantly to a point: ‘Meenakshi’ or the fish eyed one....! But they have none of a Meenakshi’s grace or sophistication; rather they are the local goons and my Barbet has his work cut out for him, defending his flat from their unauthorised encroachment attempts.

          Last Sunday, I was having tea and day dreaming on my balcony, when I happened to look down upon the road below my flat. I found a mynah fledgling sitting on the ground and none of the raucous parents in sight. At first I thought that maybe the kid was being taught to fly. But then when I saw that the little one was sitting a little too patiently as if waiting for something to happen, I realised something was amiss. So I went down and picked the baby up. I realised that since it was too young to fly (its eyes were still closed), it must have fallen off the nest. Now, not being the physical activity inclined and having never ever climbed a single tree in my life, I was at a loss as to how to replace the lost kid back into its nest. I consulted Other Half and for once he too was flummoxed. Then I had an idea. I summoned a nearby parked truck and requested the driver if he could climb up on its roof and place the mynah back into its nest. Thankfully and to my pleasant surprise, the rough talking, heavily moustachioed, ‘member of the local akhara’ kind of driver agreed immediately (rather uncharacteristically, I thought). Nestling the little bird with surprising tenderness in his huge beefy hands, he swiftly climbed up the truck’s roof. Then because the nest was still higher up, he actually clambered up the tree and placed the baby back gently in its nest; helped in his endeavour in no mean measure by Other Half. And during this entire operation, the mynah parents did not do much, except issuing one or two half hearted screeches when my 6 month old too curious Labrador tried to sniff at their baby. I really wouldn’t give these birds many marks for their parenting skills. The barbets I think are better parents; but then who am I to judge...

The Owls

          When I sit in my balcony, at the exact level of my eyes is a tree hole where an owl couple have taken up abode. I am yet to determine the exact species to which these owls belong but I can tell you that they are only slightly smaller than a crow, white with plenty of grey-black markings, are both nocturnal and ‘dayturnal’(diurnal) and look quite intelligent. Now I say that because unlike the barbets whose goggle eyed gaze makes you suspect their intellect, the owl’s goggle (if you can call it that) for some unfathomable reason, gives an impression of great wisdom. And this is further enhanced by the slow motion horizontal bobbing of their heads which they resort to now and then. It actually reminds me of my super brainy friends from the South whose horizontal head bobbing famously indicated comprehension.

          The owls have at present abandoned the tree hole as the kids are all grown up, but they still inhabit my trees. I see them often, sometimes the parents and at other times the kids, sitting quietly atop a neem branch and gazing at me in benign fondness. And at night I can hear them babbling away happily in owl-tongue on the branch just above my pillow. In the dark of the night especially when there is a powercut and all else is shadowy, silent and sinister, it is reassuring to hear them chatter unconcerned, just next to you.

Others of the Menagerie

          A number of hornbills also live in the neighbourhood, though not on my trees. They prefer the eucalyptus tree, of which there are plenty in the area, each one taller than the other. The hornbill’s dusky grey colour melts into the grey of the eucalyptus bark, creating the perfect camouflage; probably that is why they prefer these trees. I think a pair of them have nested on a nearby eucalyptus , but the tree being a trifle far away, I can’t be very sure. Unlike the chatty mynahs or noisy parrots, these birds, like village elders, are silent, composed and exclusive. They  however, share one thing in common with the barbets: their mammoth beaks. I sometimes think that these beaks must occupy a place of pride in the avian community, like the moustaches of Rajputs at the Pushkar Mela.

          Then there are the tiny sunbirds, colourful, iridescent pixies that flit from branch to branch like butterflies. They are so swift and so restive that I have still not been able to capture them on film. Though they are not hummingbirds, I have seen them hover confidently over flowers, just like hummingbirds. My curiosity roused, I read up about them and thus came to know that though the sunbirds and hummingbirds originate from independent ancestors, they show what is known as ‘convergent evolution’, that is they have a large number of similar features viz. their small size, long thin curved beak, bright colours, nectar drinking habit and of course the ability to hover.....

          Another pixie like flitter is the Indian Magpie-Robin, or the Doyel. I don’t know what it is called in Hindi but it is ubiquitous in India and I personally have spotted these birds all over the country. The Doyel wears a little black dress but with a difference. Its LBD has splashes of white on the front and on the tail , a bold style statement.  And it can sing too, a melodious call that can give the Koel a run for its money.

          As for the Koel, I have yet to see a bird more shy and introverted than them. They keep up their incessant song from dawn to dusk, filling the skies with plaintive longing; but try as you might, you will never be able to spot them at their perch. Its like they are completely invisible. Only once, did I actually manage to spot one of them, perched high above my balcony, on the tamarind tree; a shapeless black mass silhouetted against a darkening sky. Rarely, you can spot them as they rush by in a clumsy flap of wings, as if they are ashamed of their ungainly looks and are in a hurry to disappear from your sight.

          And before I end, I must tell you about my friend, the Heron. Spotting a heron in my neighbourhood is like spotting a dolphin in the desert because the place where I live has no lake, no river, no pond, no water body, not even an ornamental fountain.....! Indian Pond Herons usually live near and forage in ponds or inundated paddy fields (these too are absent in my neighbourhood) and so spotting one here was quite a surprise. On closer scrutiny, I realised that a small concrete drain carrying storm water runs through this area and my friend was actually fishing here. The mystery of his presence solved, we now took to admiring each other. The heron is of the size of a hen, brown with dull white and black streaks. It looks as if it has got a pronounced crick in its neck as it rarely ever extends the neck to its full length and in the process ends up looking like a hunchback! Most of the time, I have seen it treading with careful, measured steps on the grassy bank of the storm drain and eyeing me with interest as I walk back home in the afternoons. If startled, say by a stray dog or a whizzing car, it takes off in a graceful swoop, its wings now stretched out in their full white beauty. Of late my friend is missing, may be because the drain has dried out in the summer heat. But I hope he?/she? will be back once the monsoons arrive to fill the drain with rainwater and we could then take to admiring each other once again.             

 

Brown Headed Barbet

Tuesday, 26 May 2015

Love and Longing Tagore Style



The Tagore buzz is still on and so here is another paraphrase. Did I just hear my regular readers (are there are any?) wail, ‘What, another one?’ To confess, Tagore, has really got under my skin and I can’t help but talk about his works. So begging pardon for this obsession, here is ‘another’ one…..


        This latest discovery belongs to the category of ‘Love and Longing’ and like many of Tagore’s love songs, is both a love song and a hymn. Many of Tagore’s verses, while overtly appearing as love songs can also, in the finest of ‘Bhakti’ traditions wherein the beloved is only another manifestation of the Supreme Being, be interpreted by the discerning listener as hymns to the Almighty.  

              So this one is about unrequited love, about the silent admirer who adores from a distance. Diligently retrieving bits and pieces of the words, glances and touches carelessly thrown away by the adored one, this lover weaves himself a wild and wonderful tapestry of dreams. And so he lives his love in his dreams, never mind that the Adored One is not even aware that he exists, let alone know of his love for her. And though he experiences his love vicariously and finally even rues that what he has are only the pieces and not the whole, I still find it kind of sweet and even poignant. In this day of loud, blatant, in-your-face expression of romance, the idea of a silent admirer living in the dream world he has woven around his Adoration, is not without appeal.

              And for the devotee, the song is a wistful expression of his devotion to the Almighty, of how because She never manifests in person, one can only worship from afar, finding Her in the bits and pieces of Her creations.

Ektuku Choyan Laage….

একটুকু ছোওয়া লাগে



একটুকু ছোঁওয়া লাগে, একটুকু কথা শুনি-
তাই দিয়ে মনে মনে রচি মম ফাল্গুনী ।

কিছু পলাশের নেশা, কিছু না চাঁপায় মেশা,
তাই দিয়ে সুরে সুরে রংগে রসে জাল বুনি ।

যেটুকু কাছেতে আসে ক্ষণিকের ফাঁকে ফাঁকে
চকিত মনের কোণে স্বপনের ছবি আঁকে ।

যেটুকু যায় যে দূরে ভাবনা কাঁপায় সুরে,
তাই নিয়ে যায় বেলা নূপুরের তাল গুনি ।।                                                      


With 
The lightest brush of your touch,
And 

The faintest murmur of your voice,
I compose for me,
My very own 

Spring Symphony!

With 
A tinge of the red of the Palash
And

A whiff of the fragrance of the Champa
I weave for me,
My very own 

Rhythm Tapestry!

And
Whatever little of You,
That slips through
Moment's seams
In my mind’s darkest corners
Draws vivid dreams.

Yet, 
All that of You,
Which, leaving me to rue,
Draws far away:
With the tinkle of anklet bells
Whiles to close,

My day.........

Friday, 13 February 2015

Lest You Forget: Another Tagore Translation

Prologue

Rain and snow have descended with vengeance on this little settlement nestled against the mountains. The afternoon is cold and dim, the mountain tops sprinkled with snow and curtained in clouds, the birds have hidden themselves as have the humans, down in the valley not a single light is lit, only the rain and wind roam wild and the mist swirls all around in gray swathes. I stand shivering on the porch, the hood of my fleece jacket pulled tight against my ears and look around. In that queer half light of an afternoon sun that has hidden itself from the rain and wind, it seems as if my little basti is floating in space on the back of the rain clouds, hemmed on one side by the grim, gray mountains, all alone, lost, forgotten by the real world......
It's all rather forlorn, so I retreat inside to the warmth of my little room, switch on the room heater and my iPad, burying myself deep inside the quilt as Hemanta's soulful voice fills the room with the Poet's terribly sad তবু মনে রেখো (Tobu Mone Rekho, Still, Remember Me).

This one's another of Tagore's jewels, a song for remembrance. It talks of how we continue to live even after death in the thoughts of those who loved us in life.
The verse contains a plaintive plea from the poet to his love, a plea that she continue to remember him even when she has finally reconciled to his loss and has stopped grieving for him. But the song is not just a love-song, for it echoes a want common to all of humanity, the desire to live forever, the desire to be immortal, to live on in the memories of those who come after us.

Of course my version doesn’t compare in any measure to the original, but nevertheless, do read on.

I have also posted a link to a You Tube video of the song in Bengali. Let me know if you like it.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=X5aMrZoOV04

The Original Verse in Bong

Tobu mone rekho
Tobu mone rekho
Jodi dure jai chole
Tobu mone rekho
Jodi puratono prem
Dhaka pore jai nobo-premo-jal
Jodi thaki kacchakacchi,
Dekhite na pao chhayar moton
Aachhi na aachhi -
Tobu mone rekho.
Jodi jol aashe aankhipaate
Ekdin jodi khela theme jaye modhurate,
Tobu mone rekho
Ek din jodi badha pore kaje,
Sharodopraate -
Mone rekho
Jodi poriya mone
Chholochholo jol nai dekha deye noyonokone -
Tobu mone rekho.......


My Translation

Still remember me-
Even
when I have gone
far, far away...
Still,
Remember me!

Still remember me-
Even
when new passions
have overgrown old loves....
Still,
Remember me!

And
that time, when I elude your eyes,
and you wonder
whether I linger yet
there, just beyond the shadow’s edge.....
Remember me
O, still remember me.......

When tears overcast your eyes,
on that mellow night
when my play is done-
Remember me;
Just remember me...

When my work comes to an abrupt end
one balmy autumn morn-
Remember me
O, remember me.....

Then
on that day
when thoughts of me
no more wet
your eyes with tears-
Remember me......
Still,
Remember me......

Wednesday, 4 February 2015

Thoughts on Tagore


The British have an expression: ‘Bee in one’s bonnet’. The Cambridge dictionary says that this phrase means to keep talking about something again and again because you think it is important. Well, at present I have one (a bee, that is) buzzing around in my bonnet. The bee is of Tagore’s poetry. A trifle unusual bee I know, but since it is buzzing fast and strong and is rather compelling; I asked myself: why not share some of this buzz on ‘Blog Land’?

              Why Tagore? Good question. Well, it just so happened that I was surfing TV channels one bored evening and happened to hear the rendition of a Tagore song on DD Bangla. Struck by the melody and of course by the beautiful lyrics, I did a bit of reading around on his life and his poetry. And since then I have been, in one word, hooked.

              Tagore’s poetry has got this unique characteristic: it is insightful and yet does not use difficult words or complicated imagery to achieve this insight. So while reading his poems or listening to them as music, because of their deceptive simplicity, one may at the first go, actually miss the deeper import of his words. Because the language is so very simple, at times even colloquial, one easily understands the meaning of the individual words but strung together as they are in the verse, their exact connotation may not immediately be clear. Majority of Tagore’s poems have been set to music by the poet himself and are known to all as Rabindra Sangeet. He was a multifaceted personality, a talented music composer himself and the music of Rabindra Sangeet is as a result hauntingly beautiful. So even though one may not yet have grasped the connotation of his words, one can keep listening, enjoying the music, the external beauty of the words, their roll and rhythm.... Then one day it might just happen that while listening, the import of the verse hits you suddenly, like epiphany..; and for a moment, you find yourself totally stunned by this realisation, by the irrefutable Truth in his words...! 

              Tagore writes about many things, of love and longing, of devotion and the Creator, of life and its meaning, of death and dying.....; matters we do not usually bother about in the humdrum of our daily life. But with his simple allegories related to everyday life like the lonely boatman, the ebb and flow of the river, the daily bazaar, the village girl worshipping at the tiny roadside shrine or waiting for her love on a darkening night, he compels us to stop and to think, even if just for a blink. His words can actually be considered a religion, with the ability to shape your thought processes and mould your belief systems; but like Sufism, always looking within one’s self, very gentle, very secular, soaked in altruism and devoid of bigotry.

              While the verses of ‘Gitanjali’ were translated into English by the Poet himself, most of his remaining major works in Bengali are without any official English translation. As a result the audience for his works is limited. I feel that this is a sad situation, because in today’s environment of consumerism, growing interpersonal distances, intolerance, bigotry and other such 21st century maladies, Tagore’s words have deep relevance. The world would definitely benefit from a wider interest in his works and consequently, of the ethos therein.

              In fact, there is this song called ‘Shudhu Jaoa Aasha’, or ‘This Coming and Going’ which is a commentary on the relentless and futile pursuit of physical goals by human kind. He talks about how we spend our entire lifetime immersed in back-breaking toil, setting impossible, often pointless objectives and trying to achieve them, while missing out on something that is much, much more important, that is the soul to soul connections between human beings. In this short life, a mere blip in the Universe’s timeline, we are so bogged down by other goals, that we have absolutely no time to work on reaching out to our friends, acquaintances, soul-mates..... and so these associations remain unfinished, incomplete........


Shudu jaoa asha, shudhu shrote bhasa
Shudu alo andhare , kaanda hasha.
Shudhu dyakha paoa, Shudhu chue jaoa
Shudhu dure jete jete kende chaoa
Shudhu nobo durashaye age chole jae
Piche phele jae, miche asha.......Oshesh basona loye banga bol
Pranpon kaje pae bhanga phol.
Bhanga tori dhore bhase parabare
Bhab kende more, bhanga bhasha.
Hridoye, hridoye adho porichoy
Adhkhani kotha sango nahi hoye;
Laje bhoe trashe, adho bishshase
Shudu adhkhani bhalobasa!




Just this coming and this going,
Down the stream, this endless floating,
With tears while in shadows , with smiles while in light
Just this coming and this going.......

Just this a-moment’s meeting,
These half-touches, oh so fleeting.......
Then the pain of tears, at this parting...
Just this coming and this going.......

Just this forward surging,
So fruitless, borne on newer misgivings;
All these broken hopes, in the dust, on departing.....
Just this coming and this going....

With fading strength, yet relentlessly toiling,
With great desires in the heart, still bearing....
Reach failures; only failures lie ahead, a’looming.
Just this coming and this going....

To a broken boat, desperately clinging
Bereft of words, emotions weeping,
Just this coming and this going....

At the meeting of souls,
Words begun do not find completion;
Under fear, reticence, disbelief and trepidation,
Love happens
But comes not to fruition.


              I’ve attempted a paraphrase, although I am fully aware that it is absolutely nowhere near the original. But for those of you who are not familiar with Bengali, I hope it will convey at least an essence of what the poet has said. May be it would even help engage your interest in the Poet’s works and may be you would be encouraged to read the English version of the Gitanjali and perhaps even venture to listen to some Rabindra Sangeet......

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