Sunday, 23 June 2019

ONSRA: FIVE LOVE POEMS

I
An Invitation? A Reminder?

One day you will die. And one day I will too.
So?
Nothing. Just saying. Because that is why it doesn't matter too much if just for once, we drank the wine. And let the ruby red stain our lips and our hearts.



II
Worship


Each dusk I leave an offering at your shrine: flowers, incense and a bit of poetry.
Next dusk, my heart sighs:
My flowers are wilted, the incense is fallen ash and my words have gathered only dust .
And you, oh you still stand.
The Inscrutable.

III
A Surprise Gift



What can you give me, (if you wanted to)?
What would I want from you?
A few words that smile. That would be enough.
That would be wonderful.


IV
This Too is Love You Know

This too is love, you know,
This knowing you by heart;
The ravines on your face:
Light and Shade, in my art.



V
Going Away, Letting Go

I'm going away, letting go.
Why cling,like a clod of moss covered mud on your wall- ugly, needless:
So I'm going away and letting go.

My road is ok, smooth in parts, rough in others, up and down; few yellowing leaves, fallen jacaranda flowers, the gray peak with snow far ahead and a thick cold in the air.

Tried, still couldn't help turn back: caught you smiling in your cocoon of warm russet glow- so many around you...
And your smile, oh, your smile!!!!!

So it's good that I am going away and letting go.
The road's quiet but there's a faint rattle from my bag:
words knocking against words, words now loose, from my old broken verse.

Saturday, 15 June 2019

PRIMUM NON NOCERE: FIRST, DO NO HARM



The other day I had clicked a sea of purple agapanthus with my cell-phone camera and I was very happy with the result. As I exited my bathroom, admiring the bright purple shimmering in the brown haze of the afternoon heat, I thought excitedly, “I could convert this into poetry……..”

“You’ve been rather silent,” I heard her say. She was sitting on my bed, red sari encased legs dangling and the startlingly red lipstick shining like a beacon on her lips.

“Hi, Ms PnP.” I said, without much enthusiasm. “Long-time-no-see???”

She crossed her legs, the stilettos clacking against the tiled floor.

“So, are you not going to write about this doctors’ stir that’s taken the country by storm?”

I didn’t reply immediately for I was studying her red lipstick. These days Ms PnP was into watching YouTube videos on French fashion and the red lipstick (M.A.C’s Ruby Woo, no less) was the direct result. That and the kohl-less eyes and red stilettos.

Then I said, “You look smashing!” attempting some flattery in order to veer her mind away from her question. But she was immune to my efforts.

“So, are you not going to write anything at all?” Her eyes were steely.

“Mere likhne na likhne se kya fark padta hai?” I said dismissively.

“Well, you wrote about Asifa, you wrote about Pulwama, you wrote about Kashmir….You write about soldiers…..Aren’t these people your brethren too?”

“Yes. They are. But….”

“Don’t you feel their fight is a righteous fight, a fight for justice?” I had to nod my head in agreement. “Yes.”

“Then? What’s stopping you?” She asked, frowning. “Even the smallest, softest word of support will add to the amplitude of their campaign. Your writing will definitely help.”

There are very few people in the world who are immune to the force of Ms PnP’s personality and I am definitely not one of them. To me, her words were convincing, her faith infectious. So, in the evening after work, I sat down to pen my two-bit opinion in support of my brethren’s fight for justice.

An intern was on duty at a medical college hospital in Kolkata. An ailing old man with complaints of breathlessness was brought in by relatives. The doctors on duty administered an injection to the patient. The patient died. The relatives assaulted the doctors and staff. The intern was hit on the head with a brick. He suffered a depressed fracture of the skull. Gravely injured, he had to be hospitalised in the ICU and required neurosurgical consult. The junior doctors of the hospital and subsequently all doctors including the teachers of the college and others all over the country went on strike with two demands:
• Arrest and punishment of the perpetrators.
• Provision of armed security for all govt hospitals.

Neither of the above has been carried out till date.

Dear reader (outside the medical fraternity),
I will not ask you to ponder on whether the patient was already in a moribund state and whether he was brought to the hospital too late and only after his condition had deteriorated to the point no human intervention could save him.
I will not ask you to question what logic led the relatives to conclude that it was that single injection that caused the patient to die.
I will not ask you to consider that Dr Paribaha Mukherjee was only an intern, still a student, an understudy who worked under the supervision of a legally qualified doctor and any action taken by him would be only with the express direction and consent of his senior.
I will not urge you to ask that one question: why in God’s name, would a doctor want to kill a patient that has come under his care?
I will not ask you to talk about how healthcare in India is both cheap and of reasonably good quality, giving you what is called value-for-money.
I will not ask you to harp upon the years and years of ceaseless toil that a doctor goes through before he can be granted the epithet of “Doctor”.
I will not appeal to you to consider the primitive infrastructure, the daily wagonload of patients, the long, long duty hours, the pay that is not, by any stretch of imagination, commensurate with the labour poured in and all the other numerous shortcomings that plague our government health services.
I will not tell you that hospital cleanliness, equipment, staffing, availability of beds, medicines and other services are outside the ambit of responsibility of the treating doctor and that running the hospital is not his job.
I will also not broach the subject of the Google educated sassy patient who approaches his doctor like a lawyer cross-questioning a witness.
And I will definitely not talk about the mushrooming clan of naturopaths, homeopaths, Ayurveda-Charyas, YouTube influencers and the neighbourhood auntie who are all self-styled healers doling out medical advice and miracle cures without an iota of scientific backing and legitimacy.

If you are going to talk about the tenets of the Hippocratic oath that you say is being broken by these striking doctors, or say that it’s all nothing but a political game for power, or bring into the talk the issue of who prays to which Gods, or pit my profession against another, I’ll say: Stop. Please Stop.

I’ll ask you to look at the issue dispassionately, from beyond the clutches of emotion, prejudice and pre-conceived notions. I’ll ask you to focus your attention on one and only one point: the matter of justice:- A healer tried to heal a grievously ill man. The man died. The healer was assaulted leaving injuries that were life threatening. His colleagues have gone on strike because the country’s law did not follow its natural course and arrest the guilty. They have only two demands: punishment of the guilty and provisions for workplace safety. They have not asked for pay hikes, for perks, for chutti or for anything else. All they ask is for justice and a place that’s safe for them to work in. That’s all.

Don’t you think that their demands are completely justified?

(Ms PnP sitting on the armchair behind me, filing her last week’s French manicure is smiling her approval.)

So, dear Readers, if not for the sake of the grumpy old gynaecologist who brought the bawling you into this world, or for the sweet paediatrician who bribed you with orange candy before every vaccine shot, or the busy doctor nephew you call up at odd hours of the day asking what antibiotic ointment to apply on your three day old bruise, or your daughter aspiring to be a doctor someday, or the co-passenger on your last flight to whom you opened your stressed out soul when you came to know that she is a psychiatrist or the doctor schoolmate you bombard with two hundred and ten questions about your thyroid meds in complete confidence that he will never mind (and of course he doesn’t), or the gentle smiling cardiologist who performed your Dad’s bypass surgery, or the aging ENT specialist who performed that miracle surgery on your ears and gave you a hefty discount too, or the hassled young doctor at the Accident and Emergency who soothed you as he gently placed your sprained wrist in a sling, or the critical care specialist of the ICU who let you hold her hand and cry when your Mum passed away; and no, not even for the pretty lady doc with those severe looking spectacles on the tip of her nose on whom you have been crushing for ever...
no not for the sake of any of them…..but for the sake of justice and only justice alone,
STAND BY US.

Stand by us and spread the word on Social Media (for that is the easiest, most accessible tool): Post your support on Facebook, Tweet that you are with us, share words of encouragement on WhatsApp……

As Ms PnP said, every word, even the littlest, the softest has the power to make a difference.

Thank you.
SARVE SANTU NIRAAMAYAH (Let all be healthy)

PS: Ms PnP is Ms Prim n Propah. In case you want to know her better, do read my post on this blog called "A Walk to Work"




Sunday, 2 June 2019

Other Half and me took a walk in the neighbourhood a few days back, an activity we undertook after many, many moons. I have become lazy and fat and Other Half (OH) not wanting to be burdened with a rotund other-half and having failed to induce me to embark upon a fitness programme on my own, decided the best way to slim me down was to partner me in a walking programme.

As we crossed the little herbal garden, he suddenly suggested, Lets go say hello to Madam S.

Oh no I protested. It's already eight. She must be at dinner.

But he turned a deaf ear to my logic (again) and dialled her.

Oh, of course. I heard her voice, welcoming over the cell phone. Please. Please do come over.

Come, OH pulled me down the slope, ignoring my rolled-up eyes. Let’s go.

Madame S lives on the first floor of a neatly kept building flanked by trimmed lawns on either side. A child’s cycle stood leaning against the iron gate. The staircase was spotless and the walls whitewashed to perfection. I admired them wistfully, thinking about the mouldy walls of the staircase of my block and the foliage growing bindaas between the steps leading up to my home.

Madame S opened the door at one ring. She was in her track-pants and Tees.

Oh, were you going for your walk? I asked, worried we had interrupted her routine.

She laughed and reassured us. Just returned. Do come in.

Her living room was full of cartons and stuff lying around. Books, albums and other things.

Packing Madame? But why?

I’ll be leaving next year. She said.

So soon? OH asked in surprise. But you’ve just come.

Madame S laughed. Dr OH, I’ll be retiring next year.

Oh, I looked at her. She didn’t at all look like someone who would be retiring soon. Tall, slim, her long hair without grey and a smooth unlined face, Madam S was very youthful.

Ek na ek din to retire karna hoga. She laughed.

Please sit.

We plonked down upon the armchairs and refused her offer of tea, coffee and juice.

So instead, she got us her home-made ginger wine. It was sharp, sweet and delicious. And a little tippling.

Soon Madame S was reminiscing:

Those were such good days, Dr OH. I had joined the service as a young nurse way back in ’88. In Srinagar. It was so beautiful then. It must be beautiful even now, she corrected herself. But those days were very different, for they were before the militancy. Life was slow and safe. You know, we girls would go picnicking on the Dal lake every Sunday. Hire a shikara and hold our birthday parties and our anniversaries on the boat.

Madam S’ eyes became dreamy behind her glasses.

We’d pack some grub and then walk; behind the hospital, past the big bungalow, out through the rear gate, around the Fairy Palace and the beautiful gardens all the way upto the lake. And the Matron wouldn’t really mind. We’d spend the mornings floating over the lake, singing antakshari songs and the afternoons, whiling away our time and money in the bazaar.

Can’t even think of doing these things now, can we? She asked, her question rhetorical. It was so different then, the valley, so different from what it is now: there were no bandhs, no gun totting soldiers, no barricades, no curfews, no gunshots, no IED blasts, no stone pelting and no fear……………....

Madam S was nodding her head sadly. It’s all gone now, finished. She said and fell silent. But the wistfulness that had been in her voice stayed, filling the silence.

It made me feel incredibly sad.

Today’s painting, you can say, is a fallout of our meeting with Madam S that evening. The thought of it had been simmering in my mind for some time, but I could finally manage to put it on paper today.

You may ask: why would I want to paint this mottled, dying chinar leaf? Wouldn’t it have been more gratifying to paint the entire tree in all it's blazing russet glory, rather than this silly, single, almost-dead leaf?

I felt that this single, soon-to-be shed old leaf was an ideogram for Kashmir: dying yet tenaciously hanging on, clinging to hope…..

(Maybe someday, Madam S can go back to this beautiful valley where she had begun her professional life and tread all those places that she had loved, without the shadow of stones and guns....)

PS: Do leave a word.










Monday, 27 May 2019

Dad's Daal Torka



I love all things Italian: pasta, pizza, pesto and also their particularly edible men (think David Rocco, though I am told he is not classic Italian). So yesterday evening I thought: let me give myself a treat-some nice pasta in a creamy, cheesy spinach sauce with a side of garlic bread and all this washed down with a glass of Other Half’s fiery ginger wine. But while pottering around for the ingredients, I found that I was out of garlic. Since spinach sauce without garlic is like sambhar without curry patta, I perforce had to abandon the idea. While scouting around for alternative inspiration, I happened to open the refrigerator door and was immediately confronted with the baleful glare of three glass bowls full of left-over daal. The triple glare succeeded in their intended effect and I had to acquiesce: chalo, I told myself, let me go desi today, let me make 'Torka'.

Daal Tadka always takes me back to my Dad. Growing up, I had adored daal tadka, but of the kind my Dad made, from left over yellow daal; though I did not call it Daal Tadka then. My Dad called it simply 'Torka' and like a true blue Bangali, his ‘o’ was pronounced with a mouthful of roshogolla. Torka was a Baba special, made on days my mother was too exhausted or too busy supervising our homework to make the evening’s torkari. She of course always made the chapatis herself, soft and perfectly round and we gorged unashamedly on Dad's warm torka accompanied by Mom's hot chapatis fresh off the iron tawa.

My Mom is a woman with her feet planted firmly on the ground, a bit too firmly at times. Dad, in stark contrast, was the most laidback human being that I have encountered till date. He lived in his little comfortable cocoon, at peace with himself and the world at large and took life as it came. He never planned for a rainy day nor for the future and he did not know what ambition or competitiveness were. I have inherited this facet of his personality as also his love for birdwatching. I have no ambition and the rare instance when a bit of feeble ambition rears its head in my brain, my lack of both drive and devotion along with my humongous laziness is enough to nip this ambition in the bud. There is another thing that I have inherited from him and that was his love for good food, and of course cooking. He was a superlative cook and so good that he was famous amongst our family for this skill. In fact when an older cousin sister got married, Dad was the one who cooked the mutton for the wedding feast; and I remember him clearly as if it were yesterday, standing in his checked lungi over the charcoal chulha, stirring a red bubbling delicious curry with a long iron karcchi. He also always cooked the sacred khichudi prasad (we call it bhog) for our annual Saraswati and Lakshmi Pujo; and of, course he made Torka.
As I chop the onions over my wooden board, I think about my Dad a little more. He was a tiny man with a thin moustache who wore his thick, black-framed spectacles 24/7. He had a deep bass voice so superb that it sounded like Amitabh Bachchan’s when recorded and played back on our tape recorder. He was a skilled story teller too and often, if we managed to complete our homework to the satisfaction of our martinet Mom’s exacting standards, we were allowed an hour of story time before dinner and bed. He spun stories of a superhero called Gattum Singh who with his side kicks Dhurwa Singh and Hatia Singh (if you are from Ranchi or have been there, you would know that Dhurwa and Hatia are two suburbs of Ranchi) vanquished numerous villains, had tea with Queen of England and tamed three witches called Hawa Buri, Kutu Buri and the third whose name eludes me. Perhaps he left a streak of this storytelling ability in me. Perhaps.

Coming back to Torka, this was very different from the dal tadka that is on the standard menu of every north Indian dhaba and restaurant. Unlike the dal tadka, Dad’s torka had very little oil and almost no chillies. It had the consistency of shrikhand and was spotted with flecks of green from the palak that he would add as a special touch. I loved it to bits and even today, if I close my eyes, I can taste that yellow silk on my tongue and smell the faint aroma of garlic and ginger that he used, to temper the daal.
So yesterday I cooked the Torka and then, because it would be a sacrilege to eat Torka with the morning’s stale chapatis, I made them afresh (a novelty for me because I hate making chapatis). We then sat down to eat, Other Half and I. I tore a bit of the chapati and scooping some torka with it, placed it in my mouth. Instantly, a flood of favours inundated my palate, bathing me in a flash of old, happy and very precious memories.

I was quite pleased with the quality of my Torka and am quite sure Baba would have liked it to.

PS
Recipe for Dad’s Daal Torka

Ingredients
Any yellow daal- arhar/mung/masoor (dhuli) cooked/left over.
Onions, diced fine
Ginger garlic paste
Spinach, chopped fine and blanched
A little whole cumin
Hing
Few green chillies (to taste)
An egg, beaten
Mustard oil (you may use any other oil, less olive)

Method

Temper mustard oil with hing and cumin. Add the ginger garlic paste and fry till it loses the raw smell. Add the onions and bhunno till golden. Add the spinach and stir it around for a bit. Then pour in the cooked daal, add the chillies and let it bubble and reduce over a low flame. Don’t forget to stir well periodically. Once it has attained the consistency of mishti doi/shrikhand, add the beaten egg and stir till the egg has merged with the torka. Serve with hot fresh chapatis and one green chilly.

Bon appetit!

And if you would like to hear a Gattum Singh story, inbox me.

Saturday, 25 May 2019

ICARUS


Icarus, the most distant star yet detected, is a blue supergiant that lies whopping, unbelievable 9 billion light-years away……..

An attempt at 'modern' puzzling poetry...
Do leave a comment.






Saturday, 6 April 2019


I once had come upon a bedraggled painter who when he was not drunk painted with oil on canvas and sold them for a living. His name was Bhaskar and he was quite good at his art but drink would mostly get the better of him. He charged about six to eight hundred for a canvas of size six by four ( this was 2008). This being very affordable for small time art lovers like us, we gave him pictures to convert to canvas. Mostly, he returned with a painting in about a fortnight or more but sometimes he simply went underground for days, trying our patience to the limits. We managed to get him to do about three or four paintings but in the case of the last one which I had kind of commissioned personally, he simply disappeared into thin air and was never seen again. This picture was one of a pond full of water lilies, the ones we call shaluk in Bengali. I adored that little picture I had picked up from a desk calendar and it cheesed me off no end that Bhaskar never returned this picture back to me.
Later, I heard that he had succumbed to an alcohol induced illness.

I came upon a lovely watercolour of lotuses growing in a shallow pond and have tried to reproduce the same.

Leave me a word of encouragement, your good deed of the day๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜.

I'll upload three pictures today:
No 1:The Pond Lotuses (My work)
No 2: A pix of my worktable ( JLT)
No 3: One of Bhaskar's paintings

Don't forget the comments.
( The best comment wins my framed and autographed shaluk painting๐Ÿ˜.)
And yes, of course this offer is a blue blooded bribe to garner comments)


Saturday, 2 March 2019


My first attempt at Hindi. Forgive the grammar and spelling.

เค†เคœ เคฌเคก़े เคฆिเคจों เค•े เคฌाเคฆ เคงूเคช เค–िเคฒी เคฅी:
เคฎीเค ी เคงूเคช, เคจीเคฒा เค†เคธเคฎाเคจ, เคชंเค›िเคฏों เค•ी เคธंเค—ीเคค।
เคฌाเคฆเคฒों เค•ा เค•ोเคˆ เคจाเคฎोเคจिเคถाเคจ เคนी เคจ เคฅा।
เคฅा, เคคो เคคिเคฐंเค—ा, เคชเคŸाเค–ें, เคญांเค—เคก़ा;
เคฅी, เคคो Twitter เค•ी เคšเคนเคšเคนाเคนเคŸ;
เคฅा เค‰เคคเค•ंเค  เค‡ंเคคเคœाเคฐ, เค‰เคฎเคก़เคคी เค–ुเคถी , เค”เคฐ เค•เคก़ोเคก़ो เค†ॅเค–ो เค•ी เคจเคฎी : เคฌेเคŸा เคœो เค˜เคฐ เคตाเคชเคธ เค† เคฐเคนा เคฅा, เคฆेเคถ เค•ा เคฌेเคŸा।

เคœिเคฒा เคฌेเค—ुเคธเคฐाเคฏ, เค—ांเคต เคฌเคฒिเคนाเคฐ เค•े เคเค• เค›ोเคฐ เคชเคฐ, เค‰เคธ เคŸूเคŸे เคซ़ूเคŸे เคฎเค•ाเคจ เค•े เคฌाเคนเคฐ, เคœिเคธ เคชเคฐ เคฌाเคฆเคฒ เค†เคœ เคญी เค•ूเคข़ เคฐเคนें เคนैं,
เคชूเคฒเคตाเคฎा เค•ी เคฎां เคจे เคฎैเคฒे เค†ंเคšเคฒ เคธे เค†ंเคธू เคชोंเค›े เค”เคฐ เค•เคนा: เคฐाเคฎ เค•เคฐे, เคธाเคฐे เคฌेเคŸे เคเคธे เคนी เค˜เคฐ เคตाเคชเคธ เค† เคœाเค......

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